Time To Say Goodbye

These last few months have taught me so much. I’ve discovered the truth about many people and many of their intentions.

I’m not ashamed to say that the season of friendship we had is now over. I understand we are different people and have a different understanding of what friends are. We had a great time while it lasted.

One thing that I’ve really come to accept in every aspect of life is the saying “When someone shows you who they are, believe them.” Many times we try to make excuses, try to give them chances and sometimes we just overlook certain characteristics. I think I did some of all of that. Now, though, I’m seeing clearer.

While I was out for my knee surgery I also learned the value of communication. There was so much I couldn’t do on my own for weeks. It taught me how to communicate better. I am by no means perfect, but I’m better. If I didn’t understand it before, I understand it now. There are people that you’d never hear from if you don’t call them. Communication is a two way line. If one person is doing all the work, then what’s the point? It shows they don’t really care, or you’re just not important enough. Guess what, those days are over too. Just because I’m not married or have kids, like many others, please understand my busy life is just as important.

No, I promise you this isn’t a New Year, New Me, type of thing. This is growing within and moving on from toxic people. As I am redrawing my circle I realize I like what is defining my new circle. Change shouldn’t be once a year at the beginning of the year, it should be when you see a need within yourself. If we don’t grow within, we become stagnant. I’ve been stagnant for a few years now and it’s held me back. Now it’s time for me to put one foot in front of the other and begin walking this new path I’ve created.

It’s time to say goodbye.

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“STABBED”

Use to be friends

Was down for you

Down like 2 flat tires

Loyal to a fault

Yes I know

That’s my problem

Didn’t see the signs

Always made excuses for you

Blind to the colors of the rainbow

That you shed

Until you stabbed me

Not in the back

But front and center

In the chest

Once upon a time

I would have cried

Asked why

Now

I pull the knife out

Smile

Ask was it supposed to hurt

Deep down I knew

Knew that your true colors are

Knew who you really are

What you thought

Would cripple me

Leave me helpless

Left me better off

Better than I was

Before we developed

This so-called friendship

You

Yes you

Made the decision

To end this friendship

I’m accepting that loss

Moving on

Goodbye

Quiet Storm (C) July 2016