We all have regrets in our life. If we didn’t, we’d be prefect. As you know, we are not perfect. Of course, some situations may sit heavier than others. Today I want to talk about one of mine.
One of my biggest, if not the biggest, regret was falling in love and getting engaged with whom I considered one of my best friends at the time. Yes, this ranks high on my list.
Why do I feel that this was one of my biggest regrets? No I don’t hate or regret that I loved him. I hate I lost my friend from a relationship that went bad. We were pretty close as friends. One of my best friends. He was one that knew me better than most people, at that time.
Maybe falling in love was the next natural course. I guess it was to be expected based off how close we were. How well did we know each other? You know me is to know I’m very picky with food, but I love food. He’s the only person outside of my immediate family that could order food for me and always get something I can eat. Yes, I trusted him to do that. He’s also one of the limited people I trust to fix me a drink and not have to watch him.
We knew things about each other our families didn’t know. Yea, that’s not too huge, but at the time it was. I guess we just didn’t know enough about each other. Where are we now? We are nowhere. Not even friends at this point. When I look back, I realized I would have much rather had his friendship today. I know I can’t guarantee we would be friends even if we hadn’t hooked up, but I like to think we would.
Even though I regret where things stand right now, I’m okay with it. After all, I’ve said it many times before, even then he set the bar, the original standard. A bar he no longer reaches, let alone the new standard. Am I mad about it? I use to be mad for a long time. Now I just use it a lesson and great memories when I feel nostalgic, which isn’t that often these days. I have my life to live, he has his.
Yes, this was one of greatest regrets throughout the years. Would I change things if I had a time machine? I don’t know. How much different would things have been? Who knows. Maybe the friendship would have dissolved on its by now. Having regrets is normal. Just make sure you don’t dwell on them. Learn from them and continue to move forward.