I woke up in the middle of the night
Reached for you
Turned over expecting to see you there
To know that it wasn’t all a dream
But reality was there
All too real
You were gone
Actually had never been there
Only in my thoughts
In my dreams
Sighing I close my eyes
Bringing the images back to the fore front
Embracing the feelings
Of a time lost
Wishing to have a do over
Knowing I can’t
But really want to
No
No
No
Those illicit thoughts battle
Back and forth
With my conscience
Pick up the phone
Put it down
Pick it up
Put it down
Thoughts pulling
Begging for a release
Even if only temporary
Which will win this battle